Seek Not

So far, this blog has lived almost a week in obscurity. I think I like it that way. For now, this is my secret corner of cyberspace. It’s a refuge of sorts. I can come here, purge my soul and move on – none is the wiser.

Oh, sure… I had expectations. My first blog now receives over 15 hits per day. In it’s heyday even more. Some are regular visitors, some are drive-bys and some are search word hits. The most popular search term? Thong and the plural thongs take the top honors. Dunno why.

I wasn’t going to link this blog from my others and for a couple of days that worked just fine. For reasons I can only begin to guess, I was compelled to tell someone while at the same time not… I guess it’s some sort of Machiavellian game I play on myself. Anyway, I did eliminate an inactive link and in its place, I threw this one in. It was just about in the middle of my links list – not exactly prominently displayed.

After another day I couldn’t help myself… I moved it to the top of my list. It has been there now for less than two days and still no hits from the curious or the loyal. Nothing. Not even a drive-by. And now… now, I think I like it. It all of a sudden feels as if that is just as it should be and I’m not touching a thing. I’m cool.

So is this growth? Acceptance? Maturity? Mindless blather? Yes, yes, yes and hell yes! It’s all that and more. Why? Who cares? No, no. Here’s my answer… Why not? Why can’t it be more? Why can’t I do anything, go anywhere and be anyone I choose to? There is no reason, none at all and seeking external validation serves no purpose. This blog now and officially attempts to seek not.

But discover.